In May of 2011, I started a new personal blog. I’d tired of writing for an audience and longed for a place to write my unrestricted thoughts without concern for traffic. TRSJ would be the home base for everything me. Then I decided it’d be a personal development blog sprinkled with career articles. Then I decided I’d start a curated career blog. That’s when the wheels started to fall off. I’d promise to keep myself on a schedule (publicly), then fall off and have to apologize — each time coming back more energized. I never built the momentum I thought I would because I was pulled in too many directions. But even though I knew it, I kept the show going and focused on finding a new way to keep things interesting. In June of 2012, I decided I’d start chronicling my journey to get back on track and become an athlete before my body stopped working.
The Back on Track Journey
I used to be a tracklete in college — the long jump specifically. With 30 approaching, I realized that the window to hit the goals I’d set for myself years before was closing. I embarked on a rigorous workout and diet regimen to get in the best shape of my life. I was posting weekly updates and chronicling my progress. It was awesome to watch my body — physical, mental and emotional — transform over the summer. I was running faster, shedding weight and generally more happy with life. Little did it matter that working out was an additional two hours out of my day. It just felt good to be making progress and knowing that my updates were helping others. And since I had the momentum with one dream, I figured why not pursue another.
I Am *Insert Government Name*
I’ve always been good at helping people find jobs. Helping people has been one of the things that’s brought me the most happiness. When I don’t feel like I’m doing that, I don’t feel like I’m fulfilling my purpose. In August 2012, I decided I’d become a Pathfinder for Professionals. I created a Career Development blog under my real name and started working with clients on resumes and cover letters, and writing career articles for popular online destinations. Little did I know that my transition to career coaching would be the straw that broke the proverbial camel’s back. Though extremely rewarding, it took up more of my time.
The Back on Track Journey slowly but surely faded. My postings on TRSJ ground to a September halt. Because of the time constraints, my day job — the other unspoken child — became more stressful. Things were great on the career consulting front for a few months. But once again, as SBM started to take up more of my time, I fell off. My writing on another known site has continued, but I’ve been unable to keep up with the inquiries and regular updates on my career site. Imagine money with legs walking up to your door and having to look through the peephole and say “Sorry, I can’t talk to you right now.” Wack.F*cking.Buckets.
It’s important to note I don’t do it for money, but money buys freedom. I value freedom more than anything else.
Father to One
All these projects have been my babies, but I’ve decided that in 2013 I just won’t be able to take care of them all. Though I’ve learned making comparisons to others is the analysis of the devil, it’s been tough watching parents focus on their only children and catapult themselves ahead of me, while I’ve tried to juggle a threesome with no happy ending. 2013 will be the year that I narrow my focus and get it done by focusing on one…point five. The career articles will continue, but I’m gonna see just how far I can go by focusing on growing this site. And if it gets where I’d like it to go, I’ll start paying more attention to one of my other kids.
Fatherhood is tough. I’ve been doing the best that I can, but realized I’m not the best that I can be. It’s time to narrow the focus. Will you be doing the same?